goodbyes

sometimes, life surprizes us. we might get too attached, that it's hard to let go. nothing is permanent in this world. we have to face the fact that sometimes, people are going to leave, whether we like it or not. it's hard. i would know.

just a few weeks ago, lani left the philippines once again. i know i'm just a fan, and i' was never active in the group, but then, she was my inspiration years back. i know it's corny, or baduy. i don't care. i adore her. now, i've learned to move on. if i'd come to think of it, my life seemed normal until she left. i started to have this stupid identity crisis, as you may want to call it, after she left. i had a normal reason to study until she left. i know that was years ago, it's over. i've moved on.

a friend of mine, at least i consider her my friend, is leaving the country a day before my birthday. what a nice birthday gift!? i heard from another friend that she was leaving, so i texted her to clarify. she's leaving. i know she has to. i know it's hat she want. i just think it's a little to fast, don't you think? just a few weeks ago, we were exchanging favors, she seemed settled with her work. it just came as a surprize. i know i don't have the right to feel bad, but then, like what i said, i got attached to her. i thought i have moved on but it turned out, i haven't. i had this assuption that we were getting close, it just proves that expecting too much isn't such a good thing. so, what will happen? i have no idea. i'll still probably keep in contact with her. look at the bright side, she knew it was me when i texted her in her new number...

oh well...i still hve 3 exams to prepare for... gud luck sakin...!

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