attatchments

i admit, i could easily get attached to something or most probably, someone, especially if i believe that that person is interesting...

*lani's angels and bunnies

i think a lot of people i know, knew that i had a crush on someone, an old companion... we used to be close... although we have this 4 years age gap, we used to have lots in common... that took place a couple of years ago... when my world still revolved around lani misalucha... when nothing seemed to matter to me, but music... i don't know what happened... i don't know what caused these changes... i miss everyone in the group... although i've seen them just recently, things are not the same anymore... we grew apart... i know that their worlds aren't concentrated on lani that much anymore, so as mine... i miss them... back then, i used to have fun... i used to feel good after every concert... now, everything seems so different... i used to think na we were on the same boat... **** and i... now, i feel like he's too far... so out of my reach... i know things would never be the same... i know...

*athena bcs...

i used to look up to her... she used to complete my day and destroy it at the same time... of course i'm talking about ms. boots... hahaha... the one and only, ms. boots the great...

i don't know... i just started to like her... and it grew to an obsession... i admit that... but i'm over that... i'm done with those pieces of crap... i'm tired to getting crazy over these women, and when i say women, i mean they're a lot, LOT older than me... i don't know if i'm just crazy or what but i used to like them... hahaha... so, i used to be crazy about her... i research things about her... fave stuff... address... schools... friends... manerisms... i even used to black mail her just to get her phone number...
we used to talk to her, ask for some advices... she's great... moody most of the time, but it's tolerable... magulo love life nia, i should say... she was linked to someone... i was crazy enough to really ask her if those rumors were true... she used to tell me bits of info at a time... i waited... there came a time na she told me... that was after the asec... i looked for her after we came back from ateneo... i talked to her through the window at the back of the faculty room... inamin na nia... she even told me na sasakalin nia aq if i tell anyone... in the end... before the school year ended... almost everyone knows, but not because of me... before i left for australia... i talked to her... i asked her lots of questions... i don't know if she thought i was annoying but i just wanted to clear my head before she leaves and before i leave...

i don't know why things have to go wrong just when things are getting better... just when i was starting to feel comfortable with her... just when i thought she was starting to open up to me, kailangan na nia umalis... y...?

nung summer i texted her... nangangamusta lng naman aq... then tinarayan nia aq... well, i wasn't that offended, it's just that she didn't bother appreciating the great things around her (not me) it just seemed like she drowned herself with all her problems... a few days after... she texted me, saying sorry if she offended me during our last conversation... it was unusual for her to text me saying sorry... so okei, i accepted it, as if i had any choice (joke!)...

just yesterday, she visited seton... tinuro cia ni rain... nd i grasp my breath... it was really unexpected... i mean... just that morning, i was telling mica na nakakamiss c ms. boots... well yeah... ndi na aq hyper ngyn... hehehe... i was telling them pa nga na i miss looking through the window of the faculty room trying to see if she's there... i used to freak out when i see her... ngyon... okei na q... i tried my best not to freak out khpon... nd i did it... well i think so... i don't wanna lie to myself, i wanted to see her, pero it was more because of our last conversation didn't really work out well... i just let the opportunity pass me by...pero okei lang... i know i have to let go...

***if you think i'm crazy it's okei, coz i am.. hahaha... i just wanna let everyone know that i'm over her... i'm over all of them...

***if you happen to read this, ms. boots... please give me ur reaction... please... i just have to know... (pero i know naman na u'll never read this... i knwo you enough to say that you'll never read this...)