i hate you!

someone(you know who you are),

i just realized this morning that u have always been bad to me... i didn't do anything to you... u start my day with a slap on each of my arms... before i leave the campus, you point out that i don't have a middle name... i wasn't talking to you then you'll say na u miss my middle name... i hate that... it's okei if u just do it rarely... but then, u made a habit out of it that now you seem unconconscious of what you're saying... hu gave you the right to treat me like this... tell me if i ever did something to you... i'll shut up if u cud give me enough reason why the hell you're doing this... i hate you... i just wanna let you know that... although i know that you won't be able to read this, i just really wanted to let this out of my chest... i hate you... i hate you... i hate you... and i really mean this... I HATE YOU!!!...

die!...

club

hai...so... napadpad kmi ni marlo sa sipnayan b...

sipanyan b is a math club for juniors and seniors... this club features math tricks and techniques... it's moderator is ms. elvira encina... or simply ms. elvie... the club currently has 21 members...

ms. elvie was my adviser last year sa iii-maguindanao... i admit that there was a time during our 4th quarter last year that there was an intense pressure between the two of us... i don't know if she likes me, well, i don't think so...

so, umpisa plang, aq na pnpncn ni ms. elvie... when we arrived the mag classrum, tnanong nia pa kmi if we really wanted to join sipnayan, as if she doesn't wanna believe na gusto nmin dun... aq ang pnauna nia to introduce myself nd giv the xpectations thingy... nd before magintroduce c marlo, she clarified if the two of us are from the star section... un... then nung mageelect for officers, she wanted me to lead, e ayw q, so sbi nia, smahan dw aq ni marlo... hehehe... after makaelect ng president, c aya(president) na ang nag lead for the other nominations...

at first, three juniors were nominated for the position of the vice president... then, two of them backed-out... so mei isa pa na ninominate, junior ulet... just before inend ung nominations... mei nagnominate sakin na isang batchmate q... then un... aq vinote nila... hehehehe... a junior was then voted as the secretary... un... uwian na...

bwahahahahah...!!!

attatchments

i admit, i could easily get attached to something or most probably, someone, especially if i believe that that person is interesting...

*lani's angels and bunnies

i think a lot of people i know, knew that i had a crush on someone, an old companion... we used to be close... although we have this 4 years age gap, we used to have lots in common... that took place a couple of years ago... when my world still revolved around lani misalucha... when nothing seemed to matter to me, but music... i don't know what happened... i don't know what caused these changes... i miss everyone in the group... although i've seen them just recently, things are not the same anymore... we grew apart... i know that their worlds aren't concentrated on lani that much anymore, so as mine... i miss them... back then, i used to have fun... i used to feel good after every concert... now, everything seems so different... i used to think na we were on the same boat... **** and i... now, i feel like he's too far... so out of my reach... i know things would never be the same... i know...

*athena bcs...

i used to look up to her... she used to complete my day and destroy it at the same time... of course i'm talking about ms. boots... hahaha... the one and only, ms. boots the great...

i don't know... i just started to like her... and it grew to an obsession... i admit that... but i'm over that... i'm done with those pieces of crap... i'm tired to getting crazy over these women, and when i say women, i mean they're a lot, LOT older than me... i don't know if i'm just crazy or what but i used to like them... hahaha... so, i used to be crazy about her... i research things about her... fave stuff... address... schools... friends... manerisms... i even used to black mail her just to get her phone number...
we used to talk to her, ask for some advices... she's great... moody most of the time, but it's tolerable... magulo love life nia, i should say... she was linked to someone... i was crazy enough to really ask her if those rumors were true... she used to tell me bits of info at a time... i waited... there came a time na she told me... that was after the asec... i looked for her after we came back from ateneo... i talked to her through the window at the back of the faculty room... inamin na nia... she even told me na sasakalin nia aq if i tell anyone... in the end... before the school year ended... almost everyone knows, but not because of me... before i left for australia... i talked to her... i asked her lots of questions... i don't know if she thought i was annoying but i just wanted to clear my head before she leaves and before i leave...

i don't know why things have to go wrong just when things are getting better... just when i was starting to feel comfortable with her... just when i thought she was starting to open up to me, kailangan na nia umalis... y...?

nung summer i texted her... nangangamusta lng naman aq... then tinarayan nia aq... well, i wasn't that offended, it's just that she didn't bother appreciating the great things around her (not me) it just seemed like she drowned herself with all her problems... a few days after... she texted me, saying sorry if she offended me during our last conversation... it was unusual for her to text me saying sorry... so okei, i accepted it, as if i had any choice (joke!)...

just yesterday, she visited seton... tinuro cia ni rain... nd i grasp my breath... it was really unexpected... i mean... just that morning, i was telling mica na nakakamiss c ms. boots... well yeah... ndi na aq hyper ngyn... hehehe... i was telling them pa nga na i miss looking through the window of the faculty room trying to see if she's there... i used to freak out when i see her... ngyon... okei na q... i tried my best not to freak out khpon... nd i did it... well i think so... i don't wanna lie to myself, i wanted to see her, pero it was more because of our last conversation didn't really work out well... i just let the opportunity pass me by...pero okei lang... i know i have to let go...

***if you think i'm crazy it's okei, coz i am.. hahaha... i just wanna let everyone know that i'm over her... i'm over all of them...

***if you happen to read this, ms. boots... please give me ur reaction... please... i just have to know... (pero i know naman na u'll never read this... i knwo you enough to say that you'll never read this...)

sana mabasa mo

okei...this post is for _____ to read...pero i doubt kung mababasa mo...u knw hu u r...

alam mo, i'm starting to get annoyed sa mga pangaasar mo...nd i just wanna defend myself once and for all...one idea at a time...

*the fact na lagi mo aqng inaasar na mataba aq...
well...yes...i'm fat...i know that...you don't have to tell that everytime you see me...matagal q na ung alam...

*lagi mo qng cnasabihan na mybang aq...
i admit na mayabang aq...pero ndi lagi...kung gwin q man un, nangaasar lng aq...i just wanna ask u...ksalanan q ba na sa maguindanao aq napunta last yr...? kasalanan q ba na cnasama aq sa mga seminars...? kasalanan q ba na napunta aq ngyn sa section na to...? i don't even know if i shud be happy about it...i didn't ask for this...i'm thankful, yeah...pero don't dare tell me na niyayabangan nanaman kita everytime nagkkwento aq about the seminars or the summer camp...don't worry...next time, i won't tell you anything...

*the fact na inaasar mo q sa mga application forms q...
do you think i chose this life...? do you think i chose my life...? akala mo ba ndi aq nahihirapan sa set-up na to...? akala mo ba ndi aq nasasaktan everytime tinatanong aq about that...? of all the people, bat ikaw pa ang kailangang magpush sakin na isipin un...? i know na matalino ka...bat ndi mo maintindihan...? bat kailangang ireassure pa kita na tama ang iniisip mo about me...? ndi pa ba enough na sinasabi qng tumigil ka na...? nasanay na sana aq sau...kya lng pati ung isa ininfluence mo... masakit ung fact na everyday kailangan qng icpin ung mga ideas na un just because u remind me of them... pano kya kung ikaw ang nsa situation q...? ndi ka ba mhihirapan...? ndi ka ba masasaktan...? y can't you put urself into my shoes...? y can't u just be sensitive enough to know ur limits...? y...? sagutin mo q... please... i hav to know... para ndi ganto kahirap...please... please...

*wag ka magtataka if one day ndi nlng kita pancnin...it only means that you've crossed the line...

*****for those who are reading this... u probably didn't understand what i was talking about... basta... never mind... *****

swimming lessons

hai...

i guess i will be having my dast day ng swimming lessons today, that is, if i would be able to find a way to get there...tapos na kasi lessons nina khaycee and kathlyn, so they won't be swimming today...well, ndi aq sanay...

so...last tym na nagswin aq, nung wenesday...*tragic*...hehehe...well, not that much...but i didn't exactly had much fun...

we arrived there at around 3 pm. pagdating, i realized na ate cj was there. i don't think she knows me but i know her coz she was a setonian a year older than me i guess.

so we changed our clothes, then, laro muna ng konti...hehe...cnabay kmi sa ibang students. after an hour, we got up, kain ng onti, laro din ng konti...then we lost track of what we were supposed to be doing, so all in all 1 hour lng kmi naturuan.

kmi ni khaycee, we went to the kiddie pool...hehehe...we used the slides and other stuff there, we has so much fun...hehehe...para kming mga bata...well...we still are...hehe...both of us are still 14 yrs old...hehehe...

then, after an hour or so, my mom arrived...todo sermon and inabot q...umitim dw aq...ndi q dw iniingatan ang kulay q...what i don't understand is that, if i don't give much attention sa topic, why does she have to...i don't really care about how i look, i don't care if my complexion is dark, i don't care if i'm fat...i don't care...this is who i am...and i don't care about anything else...

hai...well...ayaw q lng na pinalalaki ung mga maliliit na bagay...minsan kc..oa na...heheh...

un lng...

the lake house

how do you hold on to someone you've never met?

i should warn you that there are some spoilers in this post...

i was supposed to treat my mom for a movie khapon...but then, we got to the movie house 5 mins late...so ndi nlng...

then, knina, we went to the mall to have my id picture recopied...so nanuod kmi...

the movie was great...it was kind of predictable though...it was predictable in the sense that you'd know in the end, everything would work out well...all in all, the story was great with all its twists, but then again, these twists are not that unexpected...

the movie stars sandra bullock and keanu reeves...the acting was great...the plot was great...

it starts with kate moving from the lake house...she leaves a letter on the mailbox for the next tenant to read...after kate left the road, the season changed from autumn to winter...then there's alex, the new tenant...he reads the letter but finds it unusual since he couldn't find the paw prints kate said in the letter...

after a few letters to each other, the find out that they live two years apart...the begin to fall in love through the letters they send each other through the mysterious mailbox...they then find out that they have ment each other before, in alex's time...

they try to find ways in order for them to meet in present time...after one unsuccessful try...they decide to forget each other and everything that has connected them...

two years after, everything falls into pieces...there was a not-so-unexpected twist before the movie ended...but it was great...

there...

yan muna for now...

back to school

hai...first day plang bad trip na...

section: iv-basilan
adviser: ms. sarah villafranca
co-adviser: sir roland

math: SIR IAN
physics: ms. ditas
english: ms. nanette
filipino: sir jm
ccf: sir jm
ap: ms. grace
computer: sir franz
pe: ms. anna
tle: ms. sarah

as expected op aq...good thing na nasa other classroom lng ung dati qng classmates since onti lng ang changes sa sections...

lds--->basilan
marawi--->zdn
tawi-tawi--->moc
maguindanao--->camiguin
sulu--->mor
jolo--->dds
zds--->bukidnon

since magkatabi ang classroom ng bas sa cam...mei kausap aq pag break...hehehe...unfortunately, mas matagal ang time sa loob ng classroom kesa sa labas...so un...op...as usual...and as expected...

theme song for the first day of classes...thanks to SIR IAN...

I'm Still Here Lyrics
by Vertical Horizon

I found the pieces in my hand
They were always there
It just took some time to understand
You gave me words
I just can't say
So if nothing else
I'll hold on while you drift away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive

Cities grow
Rivers flow
Where you are, I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one that's gone
I'm still here Still here

Seeing the ashes in my heart
The smile the widest
When I cry inside and my insides blow apart
I tried to wear another face
Just to make you proud
Just to make you put me in my place
But everything you wanted to take from me
Is everything that I could never be

Cities grow
Rivers flow
Where you are, I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one that's gone
I'm still here
Still here

Maybe tonight
It's gonna be alright
I will get better
Maybe today
It's gonna be okay
I will remember

I held the pieces of my soul
I was shattered
and I wanted you to come and make me whole
When I saw you yesterday
But you didn't noticed
And you just walked away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive

Cities grow Rivers flow
Where you are, I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here
The lights go out, the bridges burn
Once you're gone, you can't return
I'm still here
Remember how you use to say
I'd be the one to runaway
But I'm still here

yan na muna for now...daming assignments e...

summer 2006

before my classes start...i just wanna look back...

march 30-april 10
australia
---katherine flood...whaaahhaahaahaahaa...whatta memory...

april 18-27
dlsu summer camp
---masaya naman...

april 28
airport arrival
island cove-oceania nd fishermans' deck

may 1
villa escudero

may 2
1st day of review classes...

may 3
town fiesta...plus...ang makabagbagdamdaming sagala...bwhahahahaha...

may 12
lani back in manila

may 13
festival mall

may 14
lani in sop

may 20
lani in atc

may 21
lani in glorietta

...

poseidon

my mom and i watched poseidon this afternoon. i really wanted to watch aquamarine but then it isn't available sa sm bacoor, so sbi ni mommy, poseidon nlng. of course we had the ultimate cheese flavored popcorn. hahahaha, wala lng, i just wanna exagerate. walang kataotao sa movie haus since the movie has been shown for the past few weeks. the effects were great. hahaha. i luv seeing people getting paranoid. hahaha. joke. all in all, the film was great. i don't really have much to say. i just wanted to post some pictures. hahahaha...

pizza hut

so...

this morning, my mom and i went to the bank to pick up my atm card, but then, there have been a problem with the name printed. i'm CLAIRE DE LEON, but the name on the card was APRIL CLARISSA M. DE LEON. what the..!? well, that's not the biggest thing today. :P

from the bank, we went to the mall. my mom was looking for a new pair of glasses, ung rectangular shape daw. hehehe. i was hungy na, so we looked for somewhere to eat since puno almost lahat ng restaurants, then, we ended up sa pizza hut.

while we were eating, patapos na kmi nun, biglang mei pumaso na middle-aged lady sa loob ng pizza hut. she was wearing a loose, not-so-dirty, white shirt and red shorts. she took the plates (there were 2 plates) on the table beside us and threw it on the glass wall behind me. she then left without a word, like nothing happened. lots of people are staring from inside and outside pizza hut, because of the loud noise the clashing of plates created.
my mom was so scared. it didn't really made much impact on me, but then my cough disturbed me once again. it is believed that that lady is crazy. well, i don't care much. all i know is that i prefer sbarro than pizza hut. hahaha. what's the connection...!?

never mind... :P